Not what I expected

A clockwork orange is a very difficult book to read, its not exactly what i expected because its very violent and theres alot of rape and murder. But i will finish this book because i wanna see how its going to end. I also forgot to mention that the main character is only 15 years old, and he is in charge of his little gang that do all this murdering and raping. Its just hard for me to imagine someone our age doing anything like this, but of course somewhere in the world something like this exists.